The Jaws of Nicotine

I had gotten an urgent call from my doctor

to come immediately

He just got the results of the MRI

and the tissue sample biopsy.

I’ve been coughing a lot the doctor and my wife both say,

“The smoking must stop!”

I said “Doc, give up smoking?

“You have to be joking!

To which the doctor replied: “Smoking is a deadly habit.”

“You said you could handle it, so go ahead and quit.”

My answer was: “I can cut down on cigarettes, but I can’t stop,

I can’t get by without it!”

Yeah, yeah, I know it is a deadly habit.

But I’ll keep buying my smokes

until it leaves me broke

no matter what the price

I won’t think twice

Nicotine makes me a little sick

I’ve said I could handle it, but I still can’t quit,

I lack the strength, the power to resist it!”

It all started with a couple of long drags

then the cigarette habit crept up on me,

You know, the stresses of the day,

the frustrations with people, the urge got a hold of me!”

Sure when I was fourteen years old and full of spirit

smoking made me look cool, tough and manly

Now forty years later, nicotine addiction

has become toxic, costly and ugly

I know the more I smoke my lungs will decay

So I guess I won’t live to see another birthday.

That damn Nicotine!

Not only does my body crave it

But I can’t stop thinking about it!

I’ve done all that I can do,

believe it or not, it’s true

So ditching this smoking addiction won’t be easy for me to do

because I have become this habit’s slave

Which I know will send me to my grave.

Yeah, it’s my choice, my body, to do as I please

and I know this will eventually lead to heart disease.

Somehow this may seem dumb to you,

So don’t concern yourself with what I choose to do

There’s just no use

Why try to make an excuse?

Cutting back on smoking will feel terrible

The side-effects unbearable

I’m always irritable, anxious, and shaky.

Even my head is confused and crazy

I’m not a stranger to the miseries of addiction

which only adds to my present affliction

tobacco smoke makes my hair and clothing stink

I can’t even get a girl to wink

I keep my lips closed because I hate to show my yellow teeth.

My wife says my breath smells, and my skin reeks

She complains about the smell in the house and walls feeling tacky

Her persistent nagging is driving me wacky

So the doctor finally interrupted: “To begin, let me say,

At the risk of repetition,”

So I said,”Hey Doc, Have you found

a cure for my sweet addiction?”

Responding He said, “Billy, don’t be so sarcastic

Your condition is severely drastic

the results of the MRI and biopsy tissue

has confirmed that you will soon die,

Here are the images that don’t lie.

You have advanced Lung and throat cancer,

and it’s metastasizing

It will end your life in a manner

that is painfully agonizing

I’m sure your children have already witnessed

your panic of increasing breathlessness

brought about by your disregard and recklessness

Upon hearing the news, I was stunned with disbelief

is this the only answer to my finding relief?

My head began to swim,

my forehead covered in cold perspiration

Don’t know how long I stood frozen

after hearing this sudden affirmation.

Then I said “Doc, that scared me, and when I’m scared

I need a smoke

I’ve got the shakes now, making me cough

And it’s making me choke.’

The Doctor added:”I warned you Billy,

time and time again

You refused to listen, and you refused to bend

You argue against everything I have to say

Just to prove a point in getting your way.

I looked at him and without a word

I walked out the door

I just wasn’t in the mood

to listen to anything more

He said, “I am going to die, I know

I’ve made everyone pissed

So leaving my wife and children alone

I guess I won’t be missed

I got into bed and had my usual nicotine fit,

hands trembling, got my cigarette lit

Taking a deep drag, I began to choke

Coughing and spitting blood is all I do

’till the day I croak

At that moment, my wife walked in

all red-faced and fumed

With a fiery rage, she seemed consumed

“Billy are you deaf?”

“Didn’t you hear a word

what the doctor said

if you smoked, you would be dead?

Shut the hell up woman, get real

it’s too late to change

what death has already sealed

I cover my head to muffle

the coughing sound

Hoping the kids don’t hear me

or are around

Each breath is becoming harder

for me to take

So afraid to sleep,

I sit up at night awake.

I ‘m feeling scared as I see

a stone with my name on it

It is a nightmare, this unhealthy habit.

Each time I cough, there’s unbearable pain

in my throat and lungs

injected with morphine; I’m not aware

when death comes

I have lived too long;

come, sweet death, please end

Death is the kind of end I can only comprehend.

Mockingly, says Death, “The delusional words of the helpless,

on my ears befell.”

Nicotine, My Hunter, your bite has served Me well!”

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Source by Miriam B Medina

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